deercountry | ( this one's for the moms )

( he feels...bad. like he caused this but he knows that the longer she kept this up, the harder it would be to accept that it wasn't real.

he gives her shoulder a squeeze and then let's go. )

I'm sorry.

( that she didn't have what she wanted. that he couldn't do more. )

[ this is the most comfort wanda's received since vision sitting with her in her room watching her sitcoms and television shows. she keeps her head forward but drops her gaze and breathes slowly and deeply. ]

I was hoping the portals would come back and they could step through them.

[ but the portals are gone and so are her boys—again. ]

I'm sorry they didn't.

( and he really does mean that. while he's not touching her anymore, he does step closer so his shoulder is almost against hers and he looks over at her. )

Why don't we, I don't know, why don't we go sit down? I can get you some water or something.

We should go inside.

[ wanda turns to walk back towards her back door. she glances over her shoulder at amos as she flicks her fingers and the door handle opens beneath a wave of red. she doesn't wish to be outside any longer, not without the boys being loud and obnoxious in the yard. ]

Do you want to be alone?

( that's what his go to would be if he were upset. alone and drinking somewhere so he doesn't wanna impose. )

I can go, if you need me to.

[ as she steps into her kitchen, wanda wanders over to the cupboard she keeps her glasses and grabs two from a top shelf. she shakes her head. ]

No.

[ that, quite frankly, surprises her. she much prefers to be alone. she had been alone when she had gone home.

she turns to face him and holds up a glass. ]

I've never seen you drink water before.

[ yes, it's a gentle challenge. ]

I drink water.

( he takes the glass from her and tips it back, swallowing down a few gulps of water before meeting her challenging gaze. )

Sometimes, it's just easier to be drunk and forget about all the crap that's happened.

[ wanda laughs and presses a hand to cover her mouth. he's sometimes so funny in the most innocent ways. he didn't even need to take a big gulp of the water!

amos will find that his empty glass is full of water once more. ]

But what about the hangover? Doesn't that just remind you of everything?

I'm used to them.

( he shrugs. )

They only really affect me if I get incredibly drunk. Most of the time, I'm just getting drunk enough to not feel anything.

[ that sounds like a lonely existence. while wanda wishes she could erase those pesky feelings of loneliness and abandonment, she's mostly grateful she hasn't. they're what drives her forward. they're what is going to help her get her sons back.

she lifts her own glass to her lips. ]

That sounds like a bit of a lonely experience.

It's an experience that means I don't get hurt.

( and that's what he'd been striving for, no attachments so he didn't have to deal with pain and fear. )

I'm fine with it. I can live with it.

[ wanda doesn't say what she's thinking: that she doesn't think he's completely fine with it. if he was, she doubts he would've come over to wish her a happy mother's day. people who want no attachments wouldn't go out of their way to strengthen one. ]

I was taking a nap. [ she looks down at her glass as she talks. ] And the next thing I knew... they were here. A whole life we lived together was here.

I'm sorry.

( he can't do anything about it and he can't change what happened but he is sorry about what she had to experience. )

It doesn't surprise me. This place can fuck with you when it wants to.

[ she nods, pressing her lips together. while wanda's still processing it all—she'd felt like she had lived a full life here with her boys, a life that isn't grounded in reality at all—she can see the flip side of it. she wants to.

she smiles small. ] It was nice, though. I got to be with them again. [ she widens her smile before looking up at him. ] That sounds silly, doesn't it?

I'll be honest and admit I don't really know what that type of connection is about but...it's not silly.

( he shrugs. she'd loved them. nothing wrong with that. )

Maybe it just means you'll see them again soon.

I hope so.

[ everything keeps implying that she will. she had heard them in her cabin. she has had them come to her here countless times. it's why wanda doesn't want to leave. what if she leaves or they're transported somewhere else and they can no longer find her? ]

They are... somewhere else back home. I can't find them. But they must be close if they are here.

I'll wish that for you.

( there's not much else he can do, unfortunately. he can't help her find the kids and he can't guarantee that she'd find them in the future.

but he can hope that things turn out well. )

That you find them.

[ she smiles and chuckles low. holding her cup in one hand and her wrist in the other, she smiles at him and shakes her head. the tough and aggressive amos burton is long gone... and something she always thought was a wall to keep him somewhat safe. ]

Thank you.

[ wanda's aware that means a lot coming from him. ]

And maybe then you can meet them. I think Billy would be very interested in your spaceship stories.

Yeah, maybe.

( he doesn't know if he's really the type to be good with kids but if she wants him to meet them, he would. he shrugs. )

Not a lot of people want to bring their kids around me.

Is it your cuddly nature?

[ she laughs softly. it's so much better to talk about them as if there is a chance they will return. it means all hope isn't lost, which is a nice change of pace. wanda's used to anything related to the maximoffs being, well... not necessarily hopeful. ]

I imagine many people would find that intimidating.

Cuddly nature?

( amos eyes her and then shakes his head, laughing. )

Have you ever seen me cuddle anyone?

Oh, yes.

[ she smiles and nods almost enthusiastically at that. amos is far from cuddly, but she knows that he can be soft when he wants to be. he'd been so just a few moments ago, after all. ]

I will keep your secret for now. I wouldn't want everyone to think you are cuddly with them.

[ no, she wants it for herself. ]

That's because I'm not cuddly with everyone.

( amos rolls his eyes. he's not going to press this too much because she's not at her best but still. )

You can be the cuddly one.

[ she shakes her head. she doesn't have the build of a bear like he does. she's a stick—she has the body of a witch, not someone who is secretly soft and gooey on the inside. ]

Were you cuddly with your friends?

[ with holden and his nice ass. wanda imagines if amos says no, he means yes. if he considers her his friend, then he must be like this with them, too. ]

No.

( of course he wasn't. what the heck kind of question was that, wanda?

he shakes his head. )

I didn't cuddle and I especially didn't cuddle them.

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